My coffee mug is getting cold day by day since ....... wait! I can't even remember since when! I can’t understand what is happening in this city. I used to think that, as a citizen of this town ups and downs will come in life and I will overcome. Yes, I still do believe that I will. I will.
In the morning, no wait... I can't call that time as 'morning'. Rather I would say when I get up I can't feel fingers, throat and nerves! It feels that everything is tied with rope.
No, I can walk. I can go towards the basin. I can see my face in the mirror. But don’t know what unknown fear kills me, pulls my legs!
I want to become aggressive, try to be furious! But I can't control my blood temperature.
I feel like, I am not living the life of a human anymore. I only can imagine me like an animal, a very tiny animal who is running faster and faster. Like a rat running for its life.
When after brushing and washing face I go to make my coffee and start drinking. Trust me I can't feel a single sip. I just pour liquid caffeine into my throat. Sometimes just after finishing a mug, I start missing coffee.
Normally at home, I eat my meals alone all by myself. That is okay to me. I take food and two spoons on my plate and just eat. But lately, I have been going through a feeling for my food. I noticed that I eat too fast! I have measured that, I spend only more or less two minutes to finish each meal! Why? What is my rush? Definitely, I forgot to enjoy food. But fortunately, I can remember what I had in my last meal.
Why I am using the word ‘me’ and ‘I’ too much! Is it a symptom of being self-centered or more rudely being selfish! No! No! Plz, don’t say Yes!
I hate the word ‘I’, I hate the word ‘me’, I hate the word ‘mine’……
Don’t say Yes…. Plz.. don’t!
March 18/2020
I feel like, I am not living the life of a human anymore. I only can imagine me like an animal, a very tiny animal who is running faster and faster. Like a rat running for its life.
When after brushing and washing face I go to make my coffee and start drinking. Trust me I can't feel a single sip. I just pour liquid caffeine into my throat. Sometimes just after finishing a mug, I start missing coffee.
Normally at home, I eat my meals alone all by myself. That is okay to me. I take food and two spoons on my plate and just eat. But lately, I have been going through a feeling for my food. I noticed that I eat too fast! I have measured that, I spend only more or less two minutes to finish each meal! Why? What is my rush? Definitely, I forgot to enjoy food. But fortunately, I can remember what I had in my last meal.
Why I am using the word ‘me’ and ‘I’ too much! Is it a symptom of being self-centered or more rudely being selfish! No! No! Plz, don’t say Yes!
I hate the word ‘I’, I hate the word ‘me’, I hate the word ‘mine’……
Don’t say Yes…. Plz.. don’t!
March 18/2020
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